Survived hell week part one and two.
Made major decisions that actually make sense and feel good to me.
Am currently in the house with five children and feel absolutely no stress.
However, must go upstairs to make sure nobody does anything crazy.
Peace!
OMM this is gonna suck.
I will have class from 9-5 (she will likely let us out at 4 if possible) all week. And next week too. It's with the older prof. who is hard to follow. And I will be working with the same student I had Winter and Spring quarters. He's completetly exasperating. Even one of the tutors from his school literally WON'T work with him.
My kids are away, and I already miss them.
It would be one thing if I were about to have a really fun week. No. It will suck. It's a ten week class all crammed into 2 weeks. I'm sure I'll be writing for two hours a night.
UGH!!!!!
Anyway...just griping. Nobody's reading me anymore, anyway.
Peace!
So, in two weeks I will have finally, after about 6 months of classes here and there, finished my hours for recertification.
Then, I have to turn them in to the State.
I have been looking for jobs. Next week, I will be able to look even more.
I don't feel qualified to teach.
I'm smart and talented and have a ton of energy, but I still am just feeling scared and unsure.
I want to live someplace with a YARD! God! This place is nice, but the outside is just too communal, and not MINE. I am so so angry with Gene for having a beautiful yard with swings that he WILL NOT USE!
My best friends are moving away, and I don't know what I will now do with the time I used to spend with them. Hours and hours of my week were spent with them.
I am honestly on the very verge of mental breakdown when I think of it.
I do NOT want to sub, but I do NOT want to be away from Greyson all day. I am a fool.
Well, this blog entry is going to hell. Let's think of something happy.
Okay: I have some good friends coming to visit very soon. And I'm having a very nice summer. The little boy that I watch is just so cuddly and adorable. And smart! Wow. He's a science brain, for sure.
I just don't know. I feel stuck. I need help but don't even know what type of help to ask for.
I probably have to break up with my guy, just because we aren't life-compatible. Even though we're in love. That's a tough one.
Urk.